Dreams. Let’s talk about them for a second. I have probably the most vivid dreams and you sure as hell can bet that I remember every single one, sometimes in fine detail. Like last night’s.
I sometimes have dreams of death. I have killed off a certain ex of mine several times in dreams, and each time I freak the eff out and race to their facebook page to make sure they are indeed still alive.
Last night not only did I kill of The Ex, but also the latest ex-boy and a friend of mine who is currently stationed with the military overseas in Qatar. Now, in past dreams people have died and it was just a relative thing. Like I got a letter saying they were dead. Last night? I WITNESSED EACH ONE DIE.
I saw The Ex get hit by a car, I saw the ex-boy just fall over dead and my friend drowned when his boat capsized and I couldn’t save him. I spent the rest of the dream crying and searching for each of them, even though I knew they were “dead.”
It freaked me out and I woke up crying hysterically. Not being able to sleep, I switched on my computer. I wasn’t as bothered by The Ex and ex-boy (and not because they are exes, but because they sometimes are on my mind so therefore it’s natural for them to show up in dreams. Even in dreams where they die.) but the witnessed drowning of my friend, in his fatigues (which I’ve never even seen him in), in my dream scared me. So I hopped on facebook, our only form of communication.
And his account had been deleted.
Well, fuck me. I’m not terribly close to him, I met him in Europe and ended up running into him a couple times while in Germany, so I don’t know friends or family. But we’ve kept in touch and had been emailing as recently as a couple weeks ago. I only have a cell phone number which I’m sure doesn’t work in the Middle East. So what do I do? I start googling.
I have no luck googling.
I then search military records of deaths in the middle east BECAUSE THAT IS NORMAL.
No records exist of him dying so that’s a good start.
It is not a good way to start my first “Monday” since August. And I say first Monday because I start my job today. Let’s hope I get no news on anyone dying today. You get that people? NO DYING.
And friend in Middle East? Please contact me.
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Oh no! That’s definitely not a good way to start any day. I hope your friend is okay and contacts you soon; keep us posted.
(I can relate to the dream thing. I have very eerie, vivid ones myself.)
Yikes! I have dreams about people dying. They always freak me the hell out. I don’t feel right until I talk to the person. And, even then, I still feel all shaky about it.
Well that sounds kind of damaging! I’m so sorry! I hope the rest of your day was a lot more calm & peaceful <3
I had a very creepy dream Friday night. I actually wrote a blog post about it but have yet to post it because I am not sure what people will think.
As for your deployed friend: do you know anyone in the military who could look up his email address in the AKO (if he is in the Army)?